A reminder for when you’re feeling a lot and struggling…
You will not be in this state forever. There will be a shift.
You don’t need to plan six steps into the future, with contingency plans for each possibility. You don’t need to know. In fact, it’s better if you don’t. I know, that feels terrible to hear. You want to know so badly. But it’s really truly okay.
It is safe to let go of that gripping grasping wanting-needing to control the future so you know it’ll all be okay. It is okay. Right here.
Be where you are. Notice how it feels. You’re trying so hard to be somewhere else. Wanting, striving, seeking.
What is here?
Is it… prickly thorny burny give-me-space-or-I’ll-explodey? That’s okay.
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What is here?
Is it… trying to escape your skin. Avoid. Hide?
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Give yourself some time with your journal. Be right where you are. Ask, what is here? It’s okay to not be okay. The state will shift when it’s time. What is here?
You don’t need to understand it. You don’t need to make sense of it. It’s a feeling that will pass.
You might find, as I do, once you write it – the full truth – you can see… it’s not so bad right here.